It sets me thinking... Life had not been easy for me for the past few days. I admit. I have been trying my best to pull through. In fact, is getting better right now. Pretty fine now.

I have finally sort out my thoughts, I believed that was the most wonderful things ever. I have tried my very best to get over it. However, all I could say is, that was tough and is never easy. However, through these, I have finally understood something. Something that Daniel have never ever thought of before in life. "When you truly loves a person, there is no need for you to possess over her. So long as she is happy, you would feel happy naturally." Perhaps, these are the words that truly came from the bottom of my heart. Something that was truly and purely came from me. In life, there are something that you will have to let go. That was the meaning behind true happiness. I guessed this was the right and the best thing I could do for her. I just wants her to be happy.

Life is as beautiful as it is, but I wanna thank God.
Dear Heavenly Father, I really want to thank you for giving me such a wonderful opportunity to experience, to learn and to grow. Dear Father, I have finally understood, Dan had finally understood what you had wanted me to learn and realise all along. That was the most beautiful gift ever. The wonderful moment that we had and everything. Which is also the most wonderful gift ever, the very special moment that are really worth treasuring. I really appreciates it and I would just want to thank you LORD for the blessings and everything. In the name of Jesus we prayed,
Amen.

It was indeed a great inspiring Movie!!! =D
I watched it that night. It took me 3 hours to download that and I just watched it till 5 am the next morning. Well, that movie really inspired me alot! After watching it, it just set my mind thinking. Planning about the future. Thinking of what is the happiness that i wanted to persue in life. The stories in the movie is in fact, a real lifestory of a family man, Chris Gardner (Will Smith).

In fact, he is considered as a smart sales man. He had invested all the family savings in Osteo National bone-density scanners, an apparatus twice as expensive as an x-ray machine but with a slightly clearer image. Initally he had a happy family, but too bad, he ended up financially breaking the family, bringing troubles to his relationship with his wife Linda, who leaves him and moves to New York where she has received a job in a pizza parlor. She wishes to take their son Christopher with her, but Chris refuses because they both know that Linda will be unable to take care of him.

Without money or a wife, but totally committed to his son Christopher, Chris sees the chance to fight for a stockbroker internship position at Dean Witter, offering a more promising career at the end of a six month unpaid training period. There are a total of 20 candidates and he is competing with nineteen other candidates for the one position. Without being paid a single cents. It is indeed a risky decision to made. However, in order to pursue his happiness. He have no choice but to take up the challenge. Meanwhile, he encounters many challenges and difficulties, including a period of homelessness and troubles with the authority. It was indeed a tough time to survive with the money he had on hands. At the later end, he managed to succeed to made a comeback.

Reflection: That was indeed a tough time that Chris tried to fight for survivor. I really sympathise for his situation. Almost teared a little but that is the reality. That is how cruel the reality is. That is the FACT! In life, we will have to fight hard for our survival. To pursue our happiness. If u have a dream, protect it. If u really want something so much in life, go get it. Never ever let anyone tells u that u cant do something. It just set my mind thinking, no doubt im having a tough time struggling with sch, VE and social life but still they are just challenges and obstacles that would made me stronger in times to come. I shall work hard and as well as excelling in both my sch and in work. The fact is, i have not been very serious in my sch and as well as work. If i don get a tough time now, I would get a real tough life in the future. Then i will be struggling as if like there is no tomorrow. I could imagine that and I don really wan that to happen in future. Everthing have got to start now and I wanted to live my life to the fullest!!!!

Went to church service today with Ruf. I hereby, would like to rededicate my life to Christ. Is been a some time ever since i back slide. Is indeed a sin. I realised my mistake. All along im just a Chirstian by name. I have not been faithful to God and is time I shall do something about it. So i really prayed for forgiveness and for God to love and accept me once again. I believe God will create a path for me and guide me to the right track. I was enlightened by the sermon today and I even questioned myself how much faith i have in Christ. This is something that im uncertain.. All along, i have been searching for it. Till today, I managed to found it! God's unconditional Love! Once again, im ready to accept Christ!

After church service, i bid farewell to Rufus and the Pastor even smiled at me. I smiled back and take my leave. It ends around 645pm and I rushed down all the way down to office to collect my receipt book for for Kel. Immediately we headed to dover and get the payment done. Rushed back to office at 9 plus. Saw LJ and upline in office settling about cal star installment thing. Submitted payment! ONCE AGAIN, CONGRATZ KEL had HIT SE!!! :D Told him, in a casually joking tone, "aww kelvin, im so touched!! Aft.... After so.... After soooooooooo LONG!! U FINALLY PROMOTED!" YEAH! hahaha!! Yet he almost wanted to slap me :/ Well it was fun! We took bus 154 back!!!

HOME SWEET HOME THEN!!! =D

Is it really misleading that resulted in misunderstanding??? I dunno... Often I would like to ask this question.. What is so misleading if people were to think it simple and take things easily. Then this would never led to misunderstanding in the first place. I was wrong... At times, I really hate MSN, it would tend to contradict and mislead... no point pointing fingers at others, im still at fault. Cos the word i used. Especially, ppl might tend to misjudge and misunderstand. :(

Whatever we do, there are people whom might have the wrong perception, wrong idea.... but why!! I really dun understand. Isn't human like us should makes life easier??? Why make things soooo complicated?? Thought of it some time.... I really wish to explain my stand and my point of view. I really dun wan misunderstanding that ended up souring relationship.. Ya nonetheless, i have already did my part... I done my best... There is really nth i can do abt it... but to wait....

Be it ppl may or may not understand my stand.. im tryin to get over it already.... Cos ultimately most importantly, im still myself. Im still who I am and what I am. I just wan things to stay as simple as it is... No tention, no hatred and no... nth. Just resume back to the way it is... Sometimes i really hope i could turn back the time.. True enough, misunderstanding is something that is really unpredictable... The next moment u might just discover that u lost something... Therefore, appreciate it. I really hope there is a chance to explains and clarify my stands. However, im left hanging in the middle or on air.. Perfectly clueless.... :(

Is ok! I guessed the truth will come to light sooner or later.. Is just a matter of time. Everything is in God's timing. Perhaps it wasnt the right time, i guessed. Well! Dan would just be strong, to pull through and survive through.. I would believe that the sun would shine after the rain.!