You're the blade that cuts right through the centre of my heart...

beginning to miss your presence...Hope u r doing fine..

“我知道你在等一个可能等不到的人。 可是你知道吗？ 我也在等一个可能等不到的人。。。”

I could sense glass shattering.... really shattering... I dunno why but just dun feel comfortable and really uneasy aft discovering something which I shld not know. If I have a choice, I would rather not know anything at all. Its the fact afterall, I can never escape. Sooner or later, I would still got to know the truth... Do I feel hurt?! probably... Do I feel sad?! Most likely.... To be very honest, there are times, I really wished I could let go of u. But true enough, I did tried... I did tried not thinking of you.. N happily move on... sad to say, I really can't.... becos u have been appearing in my mind all this while and all the time.

Though I really like u... but rather there is nth I can do becos u r set for some impt projection and I just simply can't bear to see u missed it. So the best that I could only do, was to stay away... keep away from you.. as far as possible.. really I'm sorry... the more I tried avoiding u each time.... The more pain I would feel. In fact 10.10.10 was a day I would nvr forget. thankyou so much for leaving behind a beautiful memory. No matter wad, u'll have my blessings..

Things been improving for the better these days. After so much of personal struggle. I am back to where I am today. Much appreciated my mentor for having great patience to guide me all along. I am really grateful in whatever ways that u did to help me but I am not somebody whom is good at expressing my gratitude but deep inside I can only appreciates.

Which I have ever once told you that I would not let you down. When I said something, I really meant it. Trust me, I really. I won't made empty promises. Furthermore, though the fact is that, whether will I leave the team one day, I really have no answer to this. However, the only promise I could made to you or to myself, is that... right now team is still growing yet they still need daniel to be around. As I promised I would nvr leave you at the state when you really nid me. But slowly... Slowly when the team do not need daniel to be there anymore. I will slowly find a route and a way for myself. To this day, I shall be involve with the growth of team becos this is my responsibility and is a role I have got to play. Sorry for causing too much trouble.. I am appreciative that u really cared so much for me. Thanks ms liu

After much considerations, I have oso realised that sometimes it was really hurtful to fall for some1 that does not have feelings for u. A fren of mine once told me, being love by some1 is a happiness but loving some1 is a torture. Afterall it was really true. However, sometimes I really blame myself for not being able to control my own feelings. Being emotionally attach by situation like this. I really ought to learn how to dettach my emotions. I'm really trying hard. Thru exp I did learnt something, I guess true happiness will only comeby when we are able to free ourselves. This is where we are able to see things from a bigger picture. Though I know I am truly an epic loser when it comes to this. Just becos I know exactly I have been hurt so much, really enough till I am beginning to lose confident in this area. I really dunno... tell me what I shld do.... will u?

For once, I have told myself that I will no longer need a blog to vent and note down whatever things that been bothering me. Is been a habit ever since young, I still remembered there was once someone had told me that it is one of a good way to lighten a person's burden as it could served as a best friend to let u share how u really really felt. I could agreed to it. Sometimes I just felt better after I wrote and shared everything down on blog. Cos afterall this blog had been pratically dead afterall, it was just meant to be read for me, myself and I. At times, I was thinking of closing it down. However, there is so much memories that is worth keeping. For this, I would keep it.



School, Work, family & social... sometimes I could appear to be strong but nonetheless, I would still be alittle afraid to face through all these alone. Life could be tough but I had learnt one thing, which is not to give up. At times, I understood I had created too much burden for myself. However, to be frank, I have never regretted. It was known that, people around me had been pinning high hopes on me. If I were to give up, I would definitely disappoint many of them.



Yes, I knew I had once made a promise to those who had joined me and to give all my way out despite any circumstances. Definitely I will keep my words in mind and wont let any of u down. Perhaps tht could be the only way I could do for now. Exams coming, incompleted assignment on hands which deadline is approaching soon. Promises to be fulfil, there are just too many things waiting for me to do. However, I am totally clueless of what to do but to take it step by step.

Its been so long since I ever blogged, So many things happend and I have also lost track of the time as well. Haha but well, wad happend had already happend, perhaps wad shall be the topic for today? hmmm well, meeting my long lost dl for supper? Haha well, is been a very long time ever since we kept in touch with one another. Intially, I didn't really feel like going. At that point of time, perhaps something is somewhat goin thru my mind, just couldn't think of it. Haha pretty alright after we met up and chat a little with a grp of us. Well, it seems like she didnt change much at all, still the same old amanda whom likes to disturb ppl. Oh yea, so during the supper, I managed to pass her the prezzie that i managed to made 1 to 2 months back. Guessed is been inside my locker collecting dust. Finally managed to pass it to her.



Come to think abt it, preparing her prezzie is nvr easy also. Initially, I didnt even know what to give her as a present. Remembering she alwaes nvr fail to make funny artistic stuffs for ppl, then I know this should be the right gift. Well, guessed it should suits her best. Happy Birthday then!



After the supper, we went on seperate ways. So a grp of us were heading to the bus stop and intend to take NR back home. Ended up making Mike, whom have got no license to send us home. While waitin for him to come and pick us up, the most funny thing tht made my day happend. Supposingly we should be waiting for lets say Car "A". However, there is this Car UNKNOWN tht we had mistaken it for Car "A" and.... Well I guessed I shouldn't elaborate more on this. Pretty funny also... Haha.. Oh well, tht shuld wrap up the day. Also, I guessed I had caused some1 to cough even more badly than usual. Opps! Hopefully she can recover fast.



Reached home, felt rather sleepy. So as usual, Fb-ing awhile and I was so surprised that I would come back to my blog once again. Hah tht's lame! Well, tht shall ends the day! =)




-This is Exactly the prezzie being made.

-This is exactly wad's inside! The new* stancil spray artwork!